Gut Brain Glow Up

This week I did something for the first time in 2 years... I drove my car to the local dealership to get it's service and MOT. Yes this doesn't sound like much, but it's a huuuuuge step for me, here's why: Since I've been unwell, car journeys are, to put it bluntly, awful. I get car sickness that's on steroids and all the potholes and bumps exacerbate my pain, so being a passenger is something I just sort of put up with, and have a rest when we arrive wherever we're going. So add that to the mental energy and physicality actually driving the car takes, along with a fuzzy not quite fully with it brain, and you have a recipe for being a perfectly worn out and overwhelmed driver. Now, before anyone jumps in saying 'that's dangerous driving, what are you doing that for!?', I am fully aware of this and have been slowly building up my tolerance and 'driving fitness' by doing little drives to the gym and little bits around the local area so ...

It's amazing how you can go through life and not realise how many people you encounter have experienced trauma of some kind, have experienced similar issues or struggle with their mental health (this especially is less communicated and, in my opinion, needs to be spoken about more!); so when you meet someone and 'click' immediately because you both seem to work on the same brainwave, it can be quite freeing in a lot of ways!  I'm sure we've all experienced this 'vibing' with someone straight away, perhaps you have a shared interest that has brought you together or it's a chance encounter, but it feels 'right'. As you get to know them, it quickly becomes apparent that your brains are very similar - this maybe in the way you view the world or the way our minds like to play tricks on us and the commentary they provide in the form of anxiety and other mental health issues. I've been lucky enough to have extremely good friends for whom I'm ver...

In the UK we are very lucky to have the NHS, I think everyone will agree with that. Whether it is working at its best is another question entirely and a whole other discussion that I may touch on in parts today but it is definitely not the focus....  I am very fortunate in that I have the option of NHS and private, due to my husband's job providing health insurance for him and his family, which has meant that I've been able to fast track most of my appointments, investigations, tests and treatment. I have also, however, now learned of why private may not always  be best. For a bit of insight, during my Endo investigations prior to the laparoscopy, I had a pelvic MRI that revealed a synaptic cyst in my lumbar spine, this is a completely incidental finding and not something that has been causing any known issues, aside from perhaps some mild discomfort. As a result of this finding I was referred to a spine consultant (I'm not sure the proper name!) who reviewed it, clarified ...

So a couple of weeks ago I revealed my new years resolution to try and notice something good in every day. So far, I'm keeping at it! Even though there's been a couple of pretty crappy days, I've managed to find something good. So like yesterday (my normal posting day) I was exhausted, the brain was showing the blue error message (iykyk) and overall I was feeling rather gloomy; even then I was able to see the joy in my dog every time we did, well, anything! Even just letting her out into the garden to do her business in the rain was a cause for a big wagging tail and excited eyes. That's when it hit me. Finding the good in things is what dogs do!  Yes, I know dogs don't really have much to worry about such as paying bills, mortgages, putting food on the table, but they do have an innocence and flair for life that I think us humans need to take on a little more. We teach them tricks and general behaviors, but when we listen to them, they are teaching us so much more!...

Before you ask, no I'm not morphing into 'the bard', but I do want to see that new Hamnet film! But I digress... Today I wanted to open up about the decision I'm having to make in connection to managing my endometriosis, well it's more of a brain dump really! But then again that's essentially what this blog has been from the start. As you know, I've now found out that I have endometriosis, albeit only stage 1 (mild), and although this is only an incidental finding and not causing me any issues, it is still something to add into the mix and manage. Also, without management it has the potential to progress and start causing problems on top of everything else. The most common method of managing endo is with progesterone, used to help stop periods and slow tissue growth. Infact, I even had the option for a coil to be placed during my laproscopy to start managing it straight away, but it's something I've never really felt comfortable with (the pill has al...

'New Year New Me' has almost become a conical saying now, it seems almost everyone starts the gym or some new diet / fitness routine to 'improve' themselves and beat off the Christmas binge. This is usually coupled with a resolution or two. Some of these resolutions can actually become a new hobby (I actually managed this 4 years ago when mine was to start boxercise at the local gym, it became one of my favorite parts of my week and actually introduced me to a very helpful form of stress relief and finally forming a good fitness routine, but I digress...!) but, let's be honest, 99% of them are usually forgotten within the first few weeks as we settle back into familiar routines despite the good intentions.  This year I'm trying to do a repeat of my 'boxercise' resolution in that I'm trying to make one and make it stick! I decided it needed to be something that was achievable even on my more rubbishy days, so nothing super strenuous or unachievable at...