Operative anxiety

In my latest 'progress update' post, I mentioned that I'm having a laparoscopy to finally (and fully) rule out physical factors; well that laparoscopy is now only days away! 

To say I'm nervous about it is probably a little bit of an understatement, but it isn't necessarily the actual operation I'm nervous about, it is a mixture of things: 

1) Having anaesthetic

I guess for those who have had an operation, being worried about anaesthetic seems silly, but I've never had a full anaesthetic before and so have no idea what effect it will have on me. Although I've been reassured it's nothing to worry about and like the best sleep you'll ever have, the unknown is always anxiety inducing. 

2) What they might find 

Ideally they wont find anything and we can finally write everything off physically and put all efforts into my current treatment plan, but the possibility of something like endometriosis being present is certainly a worry. Despite all of my consultants (yes, there's a team of them!) agreeing that if any endo is found, it is not causing my issues, it is still another thing to add to the list.  

3) The after effects on my body considering the smallest stresses seem to send the ol' nervous system into overdrive. 

Overall I think this is what I'm most worried about, which is ironic because the more stress I'm experiencing, the worse my symptoms are anyway; and this has definitely been the case the last week or so as we get closer. I don't feel as though my worries are unfounded either, as my main consultant is also concerned about this as the procedure is a trauma on the body physically on top of the mental aspect. All I can do at this point though is hope for the best and take it as it comes.

Ultimately I'll be glad when this is all over and that chapter has been closed off, ready to carry on moving forwards. 

Ta ta for now!